Sheetal Vinod share their experience !!!!

Hi Srujana Mam,

After a long waiting period, finally am happy to announce that i am pregnant and my baby is safe, and its all because of the parenting program [ ISP ] which i had attended in bangalore in HSR layout, and your positve energy and blessings, without this i dont think i would have handled such a tough situation...Just wanted to share how this program and the meditation has influenced me...On march 5th i tested from home and i saw a faint line and confirmed that i was pregnant..was really excited..confirmed it again with another company's card and even that showed positive, Doctor adviced to do an internal scan as my history showed ectopic pregnancy..The following day when i did the scan i came to know that things were not favouring me even this time.The doctor who did the scan confirmed that its not in the uterus and the tubes are thickened and there is some free flow of lose fluid all these were strong evidences for ectopic pregnancy again..He also said if it had to be normal it would have fallen to the uterus now and they were unable to see the tubes as the layers were thickened..I went for beta HCG test the same day..I still remember how upset and angry i was, I was wondering why god is punishing us again and again...There are so many parents who dont want babies, throw them to roads, some kill the babies through abortions..why those souls are not coming to my womb ?? was asking these qns repeatedly to myself..Yes its true that doctor had told earlier itself when i went thru laparoscopy in March 2009 that i have chances of having it again..but the chances according to the doctor was only 10-25 % , when i reached home that night from hospital..i swear when i saw the flowers hanging at the door for me to do pooja everyday morning, seeing that i was very very angry towards god and even threw those flowers down saying to my husband, i dont believe in god anymore..From the date we were married i had only 3 prayers of which one was please fullfill my wish of becoming a mom in life...i know my reaction was very very immature...but that night i cried a lot, did not take folic acid tablet, when my husband asked me to take..the question i asked to him was why should i again protect the baby having folic acid when i know that in the next two three days it will be killed and i will have to witness it..TRUST ME ON SUNDAY MORNING AT AROUND 4 AM. I WAS AWAKE I FELT SOMETHING IS INSIDE, I COULDNT IDENTIFY BUT A PICTURE OF TWO TUBES FULL IN BLOOD CAME TO MY MIND ,I COULD VISUALIZE BECAUSE OF MY HEART BEAT MY TUBES AND THE UTERUS ALSO WAS VIBRATING..I EVEN COULD SEE A BLACK TINY SEED LIKE THING TRYING TO MOVE STUCK BETWEEN FEW HAIRS INSIDE THE TUBE....I TOOK A DEEP BREATH AND WAS EXHALING IT OUT SO HARD AND WAS IMAGINING THAT THE BLOOD IN THE TUBES WAS PUSHING IT SLOWLY...I REPEATED IT AGAIN AND AGAIN I COULD FEEL YES IT IS MOVING...I DID SEE IT FALLING IN THE UTERUS...even today i dont know whether it was an imagination or a dream...i had seen on a website couple of days back how an egg released from ovary fuzes with the sperm travels through the tube and falls inside the uterus..it was an animated one...may be that s the reason i would have imagined like that..but i dont wish to take it that way...Sunday morning i told my husband as soon as i woke up its not an ectopic pregnancy...and he consoled me saying when doctor said after scan there are 95% chances how can u get excited like this...i told him no no i saw i saw..he said its my illusion and lets face however it is..i even told him the beta hcg we took on saturday will not favour us, but it will be different if we do it tmrw as my baby fell today morning...he did not utter a word. Next day morning i got the report and it was 95 very very low...We took a second opinion from an experienced HOD of sagar appolo with the help of you mam, and she told us hearing the HCG levels ur pregnancy is dropping...which again scared me but i was confident because i have never experienced such a feeling visualizing it...doctor gave us a positive reply saying lets not hurry for surgery lets wait and watch how her beta hcg levels are going..If it doubles in 48 hrs she can conclude as normal if goes high and go down then not normal..The first test was done on 8th of March, and the result was 495 it went high by 5 times, i was happy even my husband then realized what i said was correct...but still our fingers were crossed..coz she wants to see a couple of test result she said...On 10th i gave another sample ...in the evening i was sitting out in the balcony looking at the sky just imagining how each organs in the body are excited and working fast to protect the baby...i was imagining kidneys are doing their duties fast thats why i am urinating now and then...wtever i eat is being processed fast thats why i am feeling hungry even after eating a lot...i saw an eagle flying up in the sky just floating enjoying...was listening to a bhajan and felt that she was doing a ballet there in the sky according the tune...was thinking to myself..for animals what ectopic ?,what miscariage ?, what nutiritious food ? what rest ? right ! they eat everything...still they give birth and all the animals are equally or may be more intelligent than humans ? does anybody inform them about all this...Was feeling guilty of accusing god...but was wondering about his creations on earth... i get a call in the evening from my husband my hcg levels have gone again to 2343...i just couldnt believe it..i again asked him..check propery check properly....he said yes yes !! FROM 95 to 495 again to 2343...Wt should i say for this ? miracle ? or my will power ? or my subconcious mind ws strong enough to show me ? i dont knw whatever it was i just thanked god...I did the internal scan yesterday...and got to see my baby in the uterus...a black colour sac which i had visualized the same image in the uterus..baby is inside the sac now..i l get to see in the next scan...


Mam, just want to thank you for all the support you have given me through out even now...i dont know how to express it..if i had not attended the ISP program it would have been a great loss for us, i would not have come to know that our minds are so strong..i would not have realized the feeling of god is within and not the idol we do pooja daily, without your positive talks daily this wouldnt have happened...I REALLY REALLY THANK YOU AND THE DOCTOR FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART...You showed me the power of the mind, Doctor she waited patiently without hurrying for a surgery ! thats why my baby is safe now..

To all expecting and planning mothers and ladies out there,,,,, please please understand that MIND IS STRONG...anything is possible...In my case it went beyond rules after confirming it as ectopic that too 95% and my baby has come back...so be brave...dont be immature like me :-) just love yourself..feel ur mind...meditate...feel the silence...feel the peace..anything is possible. Hope this was not a long mail and i did not bore you..but just wanted to share all my minute experiencea as the month of March in my life i cannot forget in 2009 and 2010. Guess what ? my husband has started meditating, visualizing my womb and the baby...I thank god for blessing us..


Keep me in your prayers...i am still on my toes as doctor has adviced me to take complete rest for the following two weeks..Bless me and all other expecting mothers out there..


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Regards ,

Sheetal Vinod,